steve jobs fascinates me. i've been playing on an apple computer since i was 9 months old (i was watching the "flying toaster" screen saver over and over again as well as winning at busy town) and while i wonder what it would have been like to grow up in a different time period i was born to be a millennial. 

i don't love everything about steve jobs, but he does inspire me with his creativity and loyalty for what he believes in. the other night i was getting lost in a rabbit hole (i know i say that a lot... but honestly it's been happening frequently as of late) of TED talks and decided to watch jobs' address at the stanford commencement from a couple years ago. i had seen it before, but this time was different and i had more of an understanding for what he was saying.

jobs' speech this time resonated with me for more reasons than one. everything he said was so identifiable with where i am in life right now and where i hope to be inspired by creativity around me. one thing he said stuck with me:

"you can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards."

i'm always trying to make sense of where i am and where that will take me. i try to understand why i experience heartache when it happens, why things don't go as i plan, why i don't get things i think i deserve. what's been cool about this year and this past summer was relishing in the fact and FINALLY BELIEVING that God's plan for my life is above my thinking and better than the things i could imagine.

my poor small group--any time i make a point i always reference this summer. but as you know, this was the best summer of my life. when i look back on this summer it was the first time in my life that i was really able to recognize and connect the dots. my freshman year of college made sense--the good, the bad, the ugly. it all worked out to bring me where i am now and maybe if one thing had happened differently--if i had gotten what i thought i wanted, if i had even been in a different small group of people on my spring break trip--my life wouldn't be what it is today. how crazy.

i've been hearing a lot of the same messages lately--two things stick out: hardships are the best times because that's when you learn and be content with where you are. (i'm not kidding--i've heard 3 different people say how getting fired from their job was the best thing that ever happened to them... what does that mean for my future....???) but this message about connecting the dots was refreshing. OF COURSE i can't look forward and make sense of where i am now and what the future will look like. it's only once i've moved past those times that i'm able to look back and understand it all--and honestly who knows if i'm even connecting the dots in the correct way. maybe my connect the dots will change or maybe i can connect them differently.

happy monday.


steve jobs address can be found here

stay hungry, stay foolish, my friends.